Summary:
I have to trust the decisions I have made are the right ones. The time of untrustworthy people is behind me, the last person I need to trust is myself. I want harmony and family, and the world moves on. We can't wait around forever for those who lag behind.
As much as I might regret not having my family in my life, I'm building something new and acknowledging that things are hard. I want to give up and let them back in, for comfort, but the truth is I have set my path and need the determination to follow it. The people supporting me understand, and we will move on.